Tomorrow comes today

Within a WEEK, I want to Go HOME!!!

Fri, 21 Nov 2008 01:53:27 GMT

Hahahaha.. Fuuny, I have been looking forward to CIP for some reason but now I detest it. First, experience, we were blessed na walo kami sa bahay. The house is farely good, comfortable to stay but the problem is no food was provided. Luckily, all of us may dalang baon ng canned goods that is good for one week. This was instructed before hand to shoe that we are not assuming na sila talaga magpapakain. the problem is the food will not last for a month for the 8 of us.

In short, pinaghiwahiwalay kami. Nevertheless, malas pa din ako. ung napuntahan namin kasi grabe mabait sila! Si nanay, nagiihaw siya tapos si tatay who knows kung ano ginagawa niya. Very accomodating. Kaya lang kasama ko si charm (look alike niya si heart at maputi). Nung dumating kami doon nagiinuman sila tapos nagbulungan sila ng chabakano nung nakita kami. So that time, all of them including our groupmates and other CI were worried for us. Grabe kasi ung titig nila sa amin. Then the same night we moved in, naligo kami that night, pagpasok namin, they were watching PORN!!!! Grabe! Freaky di ba?!? Then the following night, lasing na naman si tatay! Sabi ni Kuya ganun daw talaga si tatay niya.
Laging lasing pag gabi. Tapos kinakatok niya kami lagi sa kwarto na wala naman siya sasabihin na matino. Imagine him asking for addresss. Katakot di ba?

Food: isda lagi! malamang may kaliskis na ako pag uwi! Tubig poso! lasang kalawang but we have no choice but to drink it. Mahirap dito.Pero kaya ko siya. Enjoy naman pero things would have been better kung maayos ung bahay ko at safety namin. nakakatawa i heard my prof saying na kung sino pa un may itsura talaga sa group ko siya pa napunta doon. Buti na lang kasama ko si charm!!! Hahahahah... so They are thinking of pulling us out there at ilipat sa ibang bahay. Nasa APLAYA kami. Basically the poor in the barangay. Malapit kami sa ilog na kadiri sa dumi.

Banyo? Grabe pahirapan jumebs! Sa dumi pa naman ng CR di mo iisipin umupo or tumapak ng nakapaa talaga. I am counting the days before the week ends, and then the stay to end! $ weeks to go!

TV without cable, DVD scarcity, Computer mimimized at with a room na pwede ka buhatin ng lamok! mahusay! I have to live with it. who knows i might enjoy it but i still miss the comfort my home can give me.

Mom's Heartache

Sun, 09 Nov 2008 12:31:54 GMT

i was hoping that last firday, after all the happening (the date and going out with Nomads)that my day would end happily. However, things didn't turned out the way I'd always planned it.

When i got home, everything was ok. Until my mom asked about the orientation about my Pinning Ceremony (Clinical Area Graduation). Di kasi payag ang mama ko sa mga gastos doon sa Pinning na un that is almost P5000.00. I see her point just like any other parents. They were addressed, I think fairly. There was an orientation before tungkol doon pero my mom didn't attend because as she says it there are other more important things or errands she had to do. Pero ewan ko kahit anong gawin kung paliwanag di pa rin niya mainitindihan or more like ayaw niya intindihin! Mahirap ipaliwanag pero i tried my best. in the end she said, wag na lang daw ako magpinning at bumili na lang ako ng pin. Ako naman ang nasaktan! So I said, Fine! Wag na magPinning, Wag naman Maggraduation (months before she said she might not go to my Graduation kasi pupunta siya ng Australia). Then when I got upstairs, kami naman ng brother ko ang nag-away kasi pingsasabihan niya ako about the way kung pano ako sumagot sa mom ko. I know it was totally rude but I was terribly pissed. So in the end, my mom and I had a row. Syempre sa ibang sinabi niya nasaktan ako and vice versa. I think yung pinakamasakit na nasabi ko sa mom ko was that Nakakasama siya ng loob kasi the way she is doing things ako ung pinaghihinayangan niyang gastusan when in fact kaya lang ako magastos ay dahil graduating ako. Pero si Jed (my brother) kahit bumabagsak at nagbabayad ka ng mas mahal (he's in private college) di ka nagrereklamo. But that's how i really felt.

But what hurts me the most, is that sinabihan niya ako na kaya daw ako nagkakaganito kasi meron ako pera sa kanya at baka daw ang tingin ko ay dahil ginagalaw ang pera para sa personal niyang kailangan. (the money was from a scholarship- selected students ang napipili by cong. bonoan fortunately kasama ako) This money amounte to P9000.00. I gave this all to her when i received when i heard she needed it cover the debts she acquired for our tuition fees. Kasi ung kapatid ko 23,000 agad ang unang babayaran. Mine was around P8000.00. My gesture was that it could be of any help sa kanya. Di ko naisip na ganun pala ung iisipin niya kung bakit ko binigay sa kanya un. If the arguement was purely out of the Pinning di ako magdadamdam ng ganito.

Lalo pa sumama ung loob ko nung saturday. I was scheduled to go to my OBGYNE. Supposedly, kasama siya. but because we had a row, di niya ako sinamahan. Sinabi pa niya sa akin na kunin ko ung pera ko at isaksak ko sa baga ko. Gawin ko kung ano gusto ko dun sa pera ko. Naiiyak tlaga ako not just by her words but also sa pinakita niya. She knows very well na natatakot ako bumalik sa doktor kasi ung Ultrasound ko masakit kasi Transrectal ung Ultrasound ko. I know that she's not used to it pero with her just seating above my head and staying while the procedure was done was soothing enough for me. Pero hindi, pinabayaan niya ako. Ayon nung nagpapaalam na ako sa lola ko naalis na ako papuntang doktor naiyak na lang ako. Buti na lang andun siya kasi at least siya ung sumama sa akin. I really felt neglected dahil doon.

Aalis na ako by 17. I am hoping na sana bago man lang ako umalis mag-usap man lang kami.

Clang, as promised, nagpunta na ako sa doktor. ANd I still have POLYCYSTIC OVARIES. It needs two years of treatment. Check up every 6 months. Unless really necessary. But I'm okie

Katherine, oo nga ngayon lang ako nagupdate ulit. Wala bang bagong article sa newspaper?

Lia, langya ka! Megasmile ung comment mo sa Multiply!!!!!!!!!! Nakita mo na siya?!?! Anong rate?!?!

Boredom illicits Impatience

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 10:25:35 GMT

The heck i have two weeks at my hand with nothing to do and i am really disappointed with the lack of an effort of someone. Hay, i cant actually demand the person to talk to me or even remember it. I wish there was something to occupy mind other than keeping myself busy with books or TV. Hope, in the next few days i have more fulfilling days. I feel so lonely and alone...

Updating after two Long Years!

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 13:40:20 GMT

Wow! It's been long since i updated my journal. Finally, kasi nakita ko na ung pinaglagyan ko ng id at password ko. For some reason I just can't remember where it was or even what my ID was. I think i need to check my memory. Baka candidate na for Alzheimers! Two years na din pala pero to be exact 100 weeks lang naman ako di nagupdate!

So what's been going on with me for these past 2 years? To be exact, I am trying to maintain my life as a Nursing Student! The hell with it, lost me tons of energy, made me tired, got no time to sleep and top of it all i didnt even finish my work to be done. There is simply just too much to accomplish making it nearly suicide to even have time to update my blog. I have to read about a minimum of 5 chapters each book for each subject. Fortunately/ Unfortunately, our school is not so abundant in books and technical things like PC, so we are encouraged to read all books we could put out hands on. Pathetic but turns out to be challenging after all. Since wala kaming common book like in STC we have to read it all for me to keep up with the Monsters in class. So in test, kung ung answer mo di ang answer ng Prof mo pagalingan kayo ng site ng libro at author for your answer to be considered! Take note we have a minimum of 4 subjects a day before kaya in a day you have to read about 20 chapters.

Nevertheless, I am nearly graduating na. Almost done na for bookbinding ang thesis namin which surprisingly hinihigi ng Manila Health Department at DOH! Hard work does pay oof after all. This coming November 17, I'll be gone for about 5 weeks para magstay sa Ternate, Cavite. The last burden the school had to give us. Similar siya sa PALIHAN natin before pero mas intense siya kasi dun kayo nakatira sa Community. Then after Xmas break we have to go back there for another 3 weeks to complete it then comes the Second batch. Nearly done, guys! We almost are! I'm planning to take Midwifery after nursing. That 9 units away from me so i can have a double degree. Then I want to take up Masteral and or be a Med Student. It all depends on my likes I guess. But more than anything I do want to work in PGH.

I have been reading my testimonials in Friendster. Lia then mentioned how interested I was in Communication or Broadcasting. I still am, its just now I realize pursuing that kind of career would never lead me to be successful not only financially. I know there will always be someone out there who desered more attention! Katherine! I am so proud of you! But then, I've come to love Nursing as well and might go even further to have this name: ANA EVITA E. BAYANGOS, RN, RM, MAN, PhD, MD. Hahahahahah.. Adik noh? Family is doing okie. I guess the only thing missing is a man! Anyone out there theN? Hahahahaha

Final Destination

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 12:35:51 GMT

Wow! It's been so long since I really got the time to update you with my life. Ang hirap kasi ibalancce lahat and all the same to have time to do the leisures we used to have before. Anong bang bago?

I rarely have time to open my pc except when I am forced to do my written reports or seat plans that I am assigned to do. Grabe! Namimiss ko si angela sa ganitong pagkakataon. I really am beginning to enjoy nursing. Or is it because ang dinidiscuss na namin ay something to do with sexuality which I always find interesting?!? I know you agree! Hahaha.. But it's good. Nakakatuwa din magdiscuss about family and taking care of them, or to trace certain sickness pathways.. Naloloka lang ako sa microparasitology. Ang hirap lang niya. I always have exams as usual. And unfortunately, di kami tulad ng ust na maaga nagcapping. I won't be capped until summer kung mapapasahan ko pa ung battery test namin. I guess I still have to survive another sem. As I am in a government school already, di nila kaya isustain ung expenses so continous ung cutting off nila ng expenses which includes students. SO matira matibay talaga kami. I am no longer in DEAN's LIST. I really regretted it since I didn't really exert much effort to like it at first. Believe it or not, without iv6 I am losing touch with my study habits. More like nagiging si SOLO ako. I sleep more that's what I mean. Nasayang lang ang aking average nung first year na I was planning to reserve for third year. Babawin ko xa ngayon sem na ito. hopefully magawa ko. Mabigat din nman kasi ung load considering I only have 26 units 21 of which are major subjects for nursing. That's around 5-6 subjects na crucial sa average ko.

Tomorrow, i'll be off. My sister is going abroad. She's going to work in Singapore as a IT consultant and Computer engineer. Finally, my sister would have the chance to really practice her field that she neglected for 2 years na ata. Hopefully, with her, makakaangat-angat na kami. I certainly hope so. Nevertheless, with her gone, it will be a big burden on my shoulder as well. I have to take over her responsibility as an elder sister, to look after my mother na nagiging sobrang kulit habang tumatanda na nakakatorete talaga, to look after my lola na kasing kulit din ng nanay ko, and to keep my patience with my useless arrogant brother. Though, my sister and I have our differences mas close ako sa kanya kesa sa naiwan ditong kapatid ko. Mamimiss ko talaga xa!

Since I have to look after my lola, natutulog ako sa kanya sa bahay para lang masilip xa. ung kapatid kasi niya namatay di ba while sleeping. Ang nakakaasar doon kami lang ni ate ang nagpapalitan na matulog doon. Now, that she's going, I am left all alone to do the job. Napakawalang silbi ng brother ko na hindi naman natutulog doon. At ang nanay kong 'konsintidora' na ayaw iwalay ang anak niya sa kanya. Nadengue si Jed months ago and that's the reason that my mother keeps on giving me. Yeah right! To think I am studying harder than him,have more work to do, it's such a burden na pag dating ko ganoon ang sasabihin na doon ako matutulog tapos ang dami ko pa gagawin. Ang pasok ko the next day is 7 A.M.

I am going to start my duty. Lucikily sa Ospital ng Maynila - sa may ward, delivery room, nursery. Plus Health Center pa. That's about 3 months and a half. Lovelife and inspiration remains 0...

Taas ang kamay! Holdpa ito!

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 06:20:27 GMT

Wow! How long has it been since I had the time to update? Clang may be right! To make my schedule unbearable, I add basketball to it. I just joined my college to play for them. Hectic isn't it? Now I have to study, have tutorials, play basketball, attend trainings, do duty, balance household chores and take care of pups! Couldn't find it any better. I guess I have to unload a little. Take note, I still have time to watch movies! I just watched the DEVIL WEARS PRADA. It was okay.

Anyway, I haven't got time to tell you my new experience. Last week, i had a 5 hours break so i went home with a friend. We were late as usual! When we got on the jeepney, todo daldal lang. Nakakatawa pa nito, nakasabay ko ulit sa jeep ung akala ko si wedge before. when we were in quiapo church, paakyat na ng tulay papuntang Lawton, ung lalaki na katabi nung umpisa ng friend ko ay bigla na lang hinampas ung kamukha ni wedge. We thought, all along that they knew each other. Nagduda lang talaga ako nung napaiyak na ung babae. I listened to what she was saying: “Wag po! Wag po! Wla pong pera yan!” Nashcok lang ako. Malas talaga kung doon ako maholdap kasi ang daming laman ng wallet ko. Nasa may 700 ata dahil magbabayd ako ng jersey naming tsaka class pics. Nandoon pa ung cel ko. So I placed my bag behind me. Buti nga andoon ako sa bukana ng jeep. My friend and I were thinking of the option of jumping the jeepney. But we didn’t. Hirap kaya! Nakapalda kasi kami. Take note pencil cut pa palda naming at nakatakong na sapatos. Binilisan ng jeep ung takbo kasi sa Lawton me pulis na. Kaya lang tinutukan ng balisong nung holdaper. Sabi bagalan daw niya. Sumunod syempre ung driver. Nanlilimas na ung holdaper dun sa isang side. Tumayo ung 2 lalaki. Sabi nung holdaper: “Wag kayong tatayo. Wag kayong aalis!” But I guess mas marami mahalaga sa bag nila kaya they refused to listen and still jumped. Luckily, siguro sa takot na maisumbong sa pulis sa may Lawton, bumaba ung holdaper ng jeep at hinabol ung dalawa. We were saved. Buti na lang! Since that day, I never wanted to go home around noon. Dami pala holdaper!

For those na inalok ko ng puppies, the deal is off. Namatay kasi sila. May genetic problem since ang parents ng pups ay mag-ina. Siyempre todo iyak lang ako pag namamatay sila ng isa-isa. Me natira naman isa and 2 weeks and 3 days na xa by now. Kaya lang mukhang bulag! Kasi di pa dumidilat ung mata niya. Supposedly kasi in dogs it only takes 9 days or at most 2 weeks. Nilagpasan na niya db? Tsaka naipangako na kasi ng mama ko un sa iba. Ah! Feeling ko swerte ung asong un maski bulag pa xa!! Buti na lang dito lang sa kapitbahay naming mapupunta kaya makikita ko pa xa.

Clang, sorry di kita nabati ng birthday mo! Now, I’ll do! Belated happy Birthday! Wish you are happy!! 

Mon, 31 Jul 2006 03:53:01 GMT

i got my long exam in anatomy and physiology last wednesday and saturday. woah! i passed with a mark above what i wanted ( sa lecture un ha). the exam was over 112. i got a 105. swerte di ako masyado nag-aral pero mataas pa din. sana laging ganito. but i failed i guess in the laboratory. sama! i was 3 points away from the passing. langhiya talga! leche kasing exam un.

i looked back for the past months and i realized i failed all first quizzes of my major subjects! di ba epal? why do i have to fail kahit isa before i tell myself that i have to study. hay naku! sana kasi kasama ko pa din kayo! ok naman mga BSN na kasama ko. they're all brilliant. it only reminds me of iv6. one diference between you and them- i dont know kung sino ang totoong tao sa kanila. ang daming plastic eh..

another work load i have to face. my retriever is pregnant. she'll be giving birth around october. ung tipong finals! kamusta naman ako? pano ko kaya gagawin un? bilin niyo na nga lang para mabawasan work ko!!

After hard days of work

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 11:57:58 GMT

It has been so long since i had the time to update my journal. to tell you the truth i barely have time for myself either. Besides from school work, hospital duty, & household chores I have a job as a tutor. I earn 2500per head a month. I got 2 kids on my shoulder right now. I can't fit them perfectly together for my sched and makes me tired to the bones everytime i crawl to my bed. I can;t imagine how i'd take my exam because we are having them at the same time. so how am i supposed to review them while im doing the same thing as well. I lose weight. I guess from a 33 waist from vacation to a 28/29 today. Yes, you may think its an achievement but i guess it makes me prone to cold. I easily get them now a days.

Nursing Proper is really a toxic besides from school work that exceeds our workload in 4th year the lecture days are so boring. I can die because of it. I enjoy very much the duty we have in the community even if it means challenging and risking myself to communicable disease such as TB. At least i could talk to people, relate to them, tell them what to do.I excel in them even in vaccines and likes. I am developing a value of patience and i rarely shout. Can you believe it? I just developed that i like babies and toddlers. Weird. It just feels good to be out of classroom- memorizing tons of books and hand-outs and getting ready for an everyday exam. What makes it more painful is that you have to study about a minimum of 4 chapters and you get an exam of over 20 items only. It makes the largest possibility that what comes out in the exam are the things that you didn't actually read. Argh.. I fail a couple of quizzes and i think i have a 60% mark on a moving exam which is equivalent to only a passing (kahiya! pasang awa lang!) I dont have inspiration! Or more like i am thinking twice if i should really be in nursing. but i cant tell that to my mom. they are all expecting me to do it with flying colors.. which i guess i cant..

At least, i went out on a date to watch superman. But it was a disaster. Why? because: 1. he was stinking (evenif it was noon) 2. he didn't buy me food in theatre (movie starts at 11) 3. his hands was roaming near my chair 4. he wrecked my bag 5. he gave me a lunch of burger mcdo and ice cream that i dont eat( the one with jelly)while he eats a nugget meal. and if you're asking if he's my boyfriend, he's not. because of my thriftyness, i arranged to meet up with him to have a free theatre. in the end, i just regretted what i did.

Birthday is coming up soon, i guess i still have no plans to celebrate especially if after the very day midterm week starts. I guess there's no time to celebrate. Well, if i have ill treat you to a movie. no parties! i cant dance that's why! and its too difficult to arrange them and expecting iv6 to come when not everybody can. its just a reminder that we may still be frends but they cant be there in all special occasions now that we are apart and on different boats.

so what's up with you guys? how's things going? any news from val?

Changes

Tue, 23 May 2006 12:07:27 GMT

I assume it seems odd for all of you to see such schedule so different from yours. I understand. It felt that way before lalo na nung evening classes. But isn't it better than the previous one?

I went to school again today, later this afternoon. I was rushing because there i might run out of slots for my PE. There has been a change. I have to go to classes on thursday from 7 in the morning. Sa 7:00 -9:00 ko na nilagay ung PE ko which is table tennis. It was the only PE available. They suddenly changed half way and pulled out afternoon classes of PE on Saturdays. Drastic change huh?!? But i guess it helps that I have a little background of that sports and it will make my saturday at least bearable for a 3 hours vacant.

Hectic Schedule

Mon, 22 May 2006 14:07:20 GMT

Grabe ang tagal ko na din di nag-uupdate ng journal. Naabsorb kasi ako sa mga novels ni Danielle Steel. I have collected them all. Natapos ko na sila lahat kaya pwede na ako magupdate.

Kanina nag-enroll ako sa bago kong College. Dati kasi sa Liberal Arts lang ako dahil basics pa lang ngaun dahil nagmajor na sa nursing na ako. Grabe lang sa pagod. Paikot-ikot lang kung saan saan ka tinuturo. Hirap talaga pag state university. 6:45 na sa skul na ako at 4:00 na ako natapos. Wala na ginawa staff kundi magbreak tapos ung resume nila laging late. Tipong 1 na daw resume after ng lunch break na tapos 2 na sila magstart. Medyo nagmukhang tanga lang ung original set ng nursing students kasi kami ung di nasabihan nung mga requirements na dadalhin sa enrolment day. Sagot ba naman nila: "Di kayo nasabihan kasi mas maaga ung medical ninyo so ung requirement di na nasabi sa inyo.." SO?!? Kelangan ko pa tuloy magsm para lang bumili ng kelangan at magpapicture. Dagdag pa ang sabi approximation lang daw ng 3-5k ung tuition pero more or less mas mababa sa 5k. Tapos kanina ung tuition 5,317. Kamusta naman un?!? Kelangang ko pa tuloy bumalik para sa balance.. Hay! Kaasar lang noh!

Tinapos ko pa din xa despite of all inconveniences. Finally, nasa pang-umaga na din ako. 3 full days classes and 2 days of duty..check out my sched and see kung kaya ninyo ihandle or should i ask kung kakayanin ko despite my health (ideny every sickness i have sa medical kasi madidisqualify ako sa nursing)I dont have classes on a Monday,Tuesday,Friday,Sunday. Wala na din ako ROTC!!!

Wednesday:
7:00- 8:30 Anatomy and Physiology(lec)
10:00-1:00 Anatomy and Physiology(lab)
1:00-4:00 Basic Concepts in Nursing I(lec)
4:00-5:00 Basic Concepts in Nursing I(lab)

Thursday:
9:00-12:00 Rhetoric
12:00- onwards Duty

Saturday:
7:00-8:30 Anatomy and Physiology(lec)
10:00-1:00 Biochemistry(lab)
1:00- 3:00 PE
4:00-7:00 biochemistry(lec)

the other day of duty di pa alam. Ung subject na may mga lab at lecture ay 5 units at ang duty ko ay 5 units din..Can you really manage kung kayo nasa lugar ko. I got in a Scholarship Program na di ko lama paano ko ginawa. I got a subsidy of 900..

the Nursing proper

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 03:23:48 GMT

Grabe ang hirap ng french nung una. sobrang iba ung pronunciation sa spelling at least nakikita ko na nga ung pattern dun sa language. may dala ako tape recorder every time may lesson at nirecord ko ung buong meeting. gastos sa tape! pero mas madali kasi marinig ung phonetics pag nakarecord. tennis is fun! mas gusto ko xa sa volleyball. kahit tataba-taba na ako at least nahahabol ko pa din ung bola. ang mahal lang talaga ng mga equipments dito sa mga sports haus!

last tuesday, formal release na nung kors namin. we started as gen ed. before nagend last skul year binigyan kami ng kors code para sa mga choices namin:
1st choice: B.S. Nursing
2nd choice: B.S. Chemistry (or B.S. Bio di ko maalala)
3rd choice: B.M.C. (Mass Communication)

we have a choice but our course will be decided in the end by the university pa din. it still depends kasi sa Average namin at credentials in certain subjects like sa nursing science ang important. lucikly, i am formally in the college of nursing na! ang sobrang surprising dun ay 38 lang ang nakapasok out of 1662 ng buong batch. Marami ang naglagay ng 1st choice na nursing just like me. So naturally, isan gblock lang kami dis skul year. At least, it'll be more fun. syempre mas marunong kaklase ko kaysa nung 1st year. most of them walang initiative mag-aral or even do simple homeworks. talagang sobrang reliance sa iba. it makes me miss iv6 sa mga ganoong pagkakataon. yes, we cheat but still alam naman nating ang limitations noon. nagtatanggalan pa din sa higher years so basically mababawasan pa ung 38 na un. wish me luck na sana grumaduate ako with honors!!

Pregnancy Test~ Positve ata!?!

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 12:27:32 GMT

Naloko ba kayo? hehehe.. di ako buntis noh! Wala nga ako boyfriend so I doubt if that will happen around this time. For the past days my mom and aunt had been telling me their expriences of pregnancy. (parang mali ung grammar! basta naiinitindihan ninyo!) ewan ko ba wala naman nga akong boyfrend but they seem firm in dissuading me namagkaroon ng anak in the future. id ont know if its just my feeling o un tlaga ung gusto nila ipasok sa utak ko. imagine sabihin lhat ng labor pains and ung mga close encounter nila with death because of pregnancy. kakadiri na nakakatakot. do you remember ung live footage natin sa THE about birth?!? ganun din!! if you look at it parang di naman masyado nahihirapan ung babae but from the sotry ng mga kamag-anak ko parang ang hirap. They can't dissuade me but on second thoughts parang ayoko na din. kahit gaano pa ko kagreen minded! at least sa sex about what maximum of 12 inches lang makakapasok. not like birth! ang laki lang nung bata di ba?!? hahaha! nakakatawa! what am i blabbering about?!? since i am taking up nursing magduduty na ako sa hospital starting this 2nd year. sa second sem magaasist na kami sa pagpapaanak! i guess i have to see more of the vagina thing live for 5 months! i have to get used to it. di kaya ako himatayin nun sa first time na magassist ako? kahiya-hiya.

thanks sa mga comment ninyo regarding sa nakuha kong grades! i was happy nga! kim, di pa din ako makalipat sa up! siguro makoconvince ko pa si mama kung nasa PLM din si jed. kasi naman may katangahan din ung brother ko at di pumasa sa PLM. Now my mom has to look for more money dahil sa Chinise Gen. Hospital of Nursing lang pumasa ung kapatid ko. The tuition is bigger than mine around 15k per sem compared to my 2500. I'll be applying for a scholarship sa 17 para wala na din ako tuition talaga. i would be a great deal para kay mama. maybe i was really destined for plm. naniniwala naman ako its not just in the school but also sa powers ko to study hard. sabi nga ni patch adams "nothing can keep me from studying, nothing can keep me from learning." But i am still wondering, if i was in the same school as you do, would i still be doing great?

i have been going out lately. naubos na nga ipon ko. nood ako ng nood ng sine. kala ng classmates ko sa plm di ako lumalabas. ang di lang nila alam ayoko lang sila kasama dahil parang B.I. sila (well most of them are- 21 ang probation this sem sa previous block ko) i want to study tennis. i think i'll do at around may siguro. i'll be taking french classes starting on monday. mahirap ba?

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 11:51:40 GMT

Last time i told everybody i was in the number one rank in the batch. This week nakuha na namin ung cards namin in all subjects. Di ko naman iniisip kung number one ako ulit or hindi basta masaya lang ako sa grades ko. My GWA (average) is 1.35- Way cool. before the term started my target average was only 1.6 or hanggang 1.5. I never expected na malalagpasan ko siya. i got the ff:
1.25: Trigonometry
1.25: Pinoi
1.25: English
1.25: Pol.Sci
1.5 : Chemistry
1.75: biology

panira lang ung biology, kung di xa nag 1.75 ang average ko ay 1.25 or something like that.. anyweiz i should be contented.. thank you GOD! i fonly i dont have a brother i would really think of going to UP.. hay.. life is difficult..

Was it likely to happen?

Fri, 24 Mar 2006 00:31:15 GMT

It's been a long time since I had the time to update my blog. I think the work load in college is starting to sink in me. Well, at least I have been trying my best to renew my study habits again. I am doing great in school so far. My classmates came to a point of telling me of at least failing a quiz para mahatak ko naman daw ung passing grade. I rceived my grade (CS) in Math. I got a score of 77/80(to be exact it was 76.97) Ang sabi ng prof namin we got the highest CS pero nakakatawa kasi di alam ng prof ko na ako ung Bayangos until a classmate told her. I had my finals this week. Luckily, i was called out by 2 subjects. Sarap pala ng feeling sa college kapag exempted ka. Sa english at trigo un. But i still took the test in trigo. I risked it to get a 1 in a goal to perfect the exam. Wala naman mababago its just going to be retained or go up.

But this is not what i should be telling you. Ewan ko ba! I am just confused from my feelings para sa isang tao. Naexperience ko ito before with Jax. Na narealize ko lang kung gaano xa kahalaga nung nawala na siya. Somehow, ganun na naman ung nararamdaman ko. Am i just being ignorant? Di ko kasi kaya makita ung demarcation line between a frend or special. Ganito ung mga ginagawa niya:

1. Siya lang nakakagising sa aking thru text kahit tulog ako
2. di ako mapakali pag di xa naggudmorning or gudevening
3. nagtatampo ko sa simple things na di niya ginagawa for me
4. counter part niyo sa pagbabawal sa akin sa mga bawal kainin
5. lagi niya ko tinutulungan in any way pag kaya niya
6. twice he asked me about what i think about him
7. everytime he asks a favor he inserts the comment para sa basketball team natin
8. if he has no load, he takes his time to call me to say gudmorning or gudnyt & switdrims
9. he took up swimming with me and everytime im sick he calls in and say "aalagaan kita diba?"
10. he never wanted me to see me crying at sobrang lungkot niya pag nagtatampo ako or nagalit ako sa kanya

I am little confused with them or is it ayaw ko lang basahin ung signs? natatakot lang ba ako? I am going to take up my nursing proper this coming school year. pag di niya naabot ung average na kailangan we will no longer be classmates. pag dumating ung tym na un dun ko lang ba malalaman ung importance niya and then the dread of just letting it go? what am i babbling about! I never imagined myself na mararamdaman ko to. sabi nga ni ms. balonkita ung bulgar will most likely the last to find love. heheheh.. those who have the experience sana magcomment kayo kahit ung sa mga lesbian time pa natin. its still the same nagmahal pa din kayo..lalo ka na kim!!! ill be expecting ur comments ha! i am desperate to hear them..

ano ba upcoming movies? i watched brokeback, memoirs, pride and prejudice (ganda niya!) what's next in line? got to work this summer for money!! i am on vacation already...

Work loads

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 13:55:09 GMT

Ang tagal ko din nagupdate. kakatamad kasi magtype. natatambakan na ko ng work. let's see:
1. English termpaper (nasa chapter 2 pa lang kami at one week na lang submission na)
2. chem lab (may 3 expt every meeting na namiss na naim ang 2 sessions)
3. chem lecture (di pa namin xa meet after midterms)
4. lots of topic sa pinoi
5. oral defense sa polsci
6. defense sa english na ang committee ko ay ang buong head ng english college

daming pressure noh! pero parang wala lang. natutulog pa din ata ako ng mahimbing. ang dami pang naghahabol na tagaibang block sa akin. grabe dami talga work. pero may tatalo ba sa workload ni katherine.

Emabrassing Experience

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 13:36:26 GMT

Hehehe!! Natawa ako sa mga comments niyo! Sana lang lagi kayo ganyan magcomment. Nakakaencourage magupdate. Well anyway natapos na ung exams namin at mataas naman scores ko including in chem, trigo (epekto un ni vilo), bio. madali lang naman dahil nadiscuss na natin so di na dapt sabihin pa. i bet kahit sino naman sa atin pwede magawa un.

e2 ang nakakahiya. last friday, i had my swimming classes. tapos sabi ko masakit ung puson ko. nagcr ako tapos sabi ko mainit lang ah. ayun nakit ko may tumutlo na blood. di ko lang sure kung may nakakita. hopefully, wala kasi nakakahiya kasi may kasama na kaming boys. nagpee ako tapos kitang kita ung blood sa running water. kadiri noh! thats y i hate being a woman in those days!

embarssing moments #2: laboratory namin kausap ko ang mga gays sa class namin. we were talking about the notebook. Ung movie tapos pinaguusapan namin ung sex part dun. ung tipong nakatayo ung organ nung guy dun sa scene na un. ang lakas pa nung boses ko and i know the details maski sa book kung anong page nila ginawa ung sex part and the difference niya sa book and movie. in addition to the embarassment, nasa likod ko pala all the while ung prof kong lalaki. and he was listening to our conversation! kakahiya. tapos sinabi pa niya sa class namin. that he never knew me as talaktive, naughty and aggressive lady in certain topics. eh alam nilang laht kung ano ung topic na un. kakahiya talga.

embarassing moment #3: we watched a fertilization film, ung may live footage ng nanganganak. tapos may mga boys. katabi ko ung isa sa kanila. eh nanliligaw sa akin un. tapos bigla ba naman sabihin loudly in fromt of the f***ng class na buti abby di kita nabuntis. Ang gago noh?!? Ano na lang iisipin nung proctor. may be you should tell me what to do? May be i should move to another country or skul and change my name!!
Comment kayo ha! Kim namimiss na kita!!!

pORn MoVIe

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 14:54:53 GMT

Last wednesday, nanghiram ako ng dvd sa isa kong kaklase na sana nadala niya nung tuesday. wednesday ko na nakuha ung movie kasi nalimutan niya. sobrang excited ako to watch that movie kasi sabi nila maganda daw. the movie is not too famous. but it has something to do with baseball players. imagine umuwi ako sa bahay mga 9:30 in the evening na kasi 8:30 pa tapos ng class ko. still di pa din nawala sa isip ko na panooring ung movie. Since i dont have classes on a thursday ok lang magpuyat sa akin. i switched on the dvd and inserted the cd.. amakin miyo ba naman ang lumabas ay porn film.. dun ko naalala sabi niya sa akin may nakarecord daw before nung pinakamovie.. xyempre skip ko.. taposs puro sex pa din ung nasa film..

it reminded me of the green topics we've had before. natawa na nga lang ako. kasi pag naiisip ko im usually one of the green minded sa class natin pero icant stand to watch those porn films! if i remeber it correctly si jade ata ung nagtanong kung magkikipag sex ka ano gagawin: manlilick? or magpapalilick?? naalala niyo pa ba? ang pinakagrabe doon when val answered na magpapalick na lang. i agreed with her. i even said maybe kaya ko gain pareho. now i've seen part of the porn film with just a flick of the remote, i am having second thoughts!!!

well, guys, if it would have been you, what would you choose? but for me i think ill just go for the plain, simple and clean. those who think they'll have PMS before getting married, think of it first..kala mo naman kung sino ako nagsasalita malay niyo ako gumawa noh?!? well just ponder upon the question! hehehehe... leave your comment ha! i want to know your answers!

Is it my duty to teach?

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 12:34:17 GMT

Bad trip. I gave my last pc sa pinsan ko para may maganit xa. Come to think of it! Di nga nila halos binayaran ung pc. Tapos lhat ng di niya maiintindihan sa akin pa itatanong ng tita ko. nakapagtataka naman para sabihin pa sa akin un kung ung tita ko mismo ay nakakapasok sa mga di mapasukan ng anak niya. Haler!! kakaasar! sa studies nga sa akin na din nakaasa. Tapos pati ba naman sa pc ako pa din. What a parasite. Nakakainis!!! Tatarayan ka pa ng tita mo! sino ba namang di maasar? Dahil mas marunong kami? Hello lahat naman kami nag-aaral kung pano gumamit ng pc tapos sasabihin sa akin ng ganun. Di ba kasi masyadong parasite ung anak niya at lahat nakadepend pa? Ay naku!!! Bad trip talga..

A Note of Thanks!

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 22:13:50 GMT

I just a ym message for previous iv6 thanking them for thier support. Thanks for the comment! I really appreciate the words you told me na you'll always be there for me! CLANG!! Thanks!!Namimiss ko na kyo! Para sa maga di pa nakakaalam. ganito un:

Recently: Lumabas ang isang ranking ng buong freshmen students sa College namin at nakita ko number one ako sa batch! and its all thanks to you na lagi pa ding tumutulong sa akin despite the differences of school. pero alam niyo somehow nagdududa ako. ngaun lang kasi ako nakakita ng college na naglalabas ng ranking ng students publicly! di pa dapat medyo palihim naman un. ewan ko ba! I asked the in charge that day. sabi niya kaya daw nilalabas un para makita ng freshmen ung baka malaglag next year. nagbabawas kasi sila ng students na ang average is below 2.25. kaya it was a warning daw dun sa mga delikado to study harder and an encouragement to study more sa mga nasa itaas. wala naman effect!! di naman kasi kayo magkakakilala ng mga kabatch ko...

e2 ang bago! nakarinig na ba kayo ng Acwuaintance Party na ginagawa sa ROTC? take note kailangan pa namin magsuot ng gown at barong or americana ang mga boys! shet! maghahanap pa ko ng damit!?! wag na lang kaya ako pumunta!! magcocommute ako ng nakagown?!? no way!!! kakatakot pa man din ung C.R. dahil may nagpapakita na batang lalaki ng nakakamisa de tsino. wala naman mawawala naka3 absent na kasi ako sa ROTC! entitled lang kami sa 3 absences!! Papatawag na ko niyan sa HQ. May mawawala ba pag di ako nagROTC or kung babagsak ako ng ROTC? *thinks..*

Meron, di na ko pwede mag Cum Laude niyan! *shrugs* just have to take it then para matupad ang pangarap ko!!

Cutting Classes

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 08:56:04 GMT

Last Saturday, I was in a rush in the morning. On a saturday, my class starts at 11:30 in the morning. I woke up so early because I had to tend to so many household chores that I neglected for 4 days. I was supposed to do the laundry on a monday but then lazy mode strikes. Sabi ko thursday na lang kaya lang tinamad din ako nung thursday. So I was set an arrangement with my sister that we will do the laundry togethr since it was her duty to do the laundry on a Saturday. Bastard kasi ung si JED! Di man lang nagsabi na may pasok xa. Nakikigulo pa kasama namin naglalaba at nagdedemand na maliligo xa. What the hell!! Nainis ako. It was around 9:30 na ng umaga, I was only halfway my laundry. Kakainis talaga. But then natapos ko naman on time. Naligo ako for about 10 minutes and nagbihis ng mabilis. I walked out the house, with clothes disheveld and hair uncomb only to find out na walang prof sa first subject ko?!? Take note ung susunod na class ko starts at 4 in the afternoon na. May concert ang CUESHE nun that tym so wlang sense magclass kung ganun kagulo ung campus. I decided to ditch classes! Di ko din gs2 makita ung ibang prof ko. and my classmates doesn't exactly make me feel comfortable. anyway, my teacher in English makes a mew challenge. I had a pointless conversation with him and instead of making him a dimwit I ended up as one:

ME: Sir, are we going to have Literature next year?
PROF: Yes. Luckily, I might still be your teacher.
ME: I like that subject.
PROF: *nods* Literature is a good subject. It's for people of intellect.

EPAL! Binara ko kasi xa nung lesson namin. Nakakachallenge!?! Ang trying hard pa naman niya. Accent ng English pero puntong bisaya. Ewan! Nakakatawa.

BTW, Lia thanks sa book! Kapal ng mukha ng classmates ko sabi ba naman pumunta daw ako sa UP para bumili ng libro para sa kanila.

Weird Dream

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 13:49:13 GMT

Last Night I had one of the weirdest dream I have ever imagined. I woke up with a start. Maybe I was startled by that dream that I was looking at the canopy of my bed for so long before it hit me that it can't be true.

Imagine I was in school I didn't remember entering myself into. Then I was just near STC. I looked around and saw all of you, IV6. I told myselfdid I purposely go back in time para iparamdam na I don't belong to PLM. But then something bizarre happened. There was suddenly a horse outside. I looked down that I was wearing something formal. Nagtuturo pala ako sa preschool. Labo talaga. I bid my goodbye to my "colleague" if that what you'll call them and used the horse to travel from where I was to STC. This is the picture, imagine me riding a horse tapos tumatakbo sa may lawn just to get to you.

I saw our teachers. Nadilaan pa nga sa bum si Romero nung kabayo dahil sa sobrang liit niya. And take note di ako sinita ng guard na papasok ako na may kasamang kabayo. Si Mrs. Formalejo nga hinawakan pa ung horse. I saw Alex after a while. She was wearing a long sleeves na white polo, a black slacks, a big belt [literal] and shoes that were too big for her. She looks jsut like a boy.

ME: Ba't ganyan suot mo? Parang kang lalaki ah!?!
ALEX: Kelangan eh. Sabi ni Ms. Ilano para pormal daw sa graduation
ME: Ganun? Eh bat ung belt malaki
ALEX: Di ko nga din alam. Dadagdagan pa nga daw ng isa!

Weirdo talaga. Bat tayo uulit ng graduation? Bat di ako kasama this time? And why were you supposed to wear clothes that makes you look like a boy. But then I thought, namimiss ko lang siguro kayo for my mind to make up something that peculiar.

Worst Cheating Tactics

Fri, 14 Oct 2005 12:15:40 GMT

Last October 10, we have started our departmental finals. It is only in my school, and as i presume in my year that i have ever seen the worst tactic of cheating in the circle of my classmates. I think our exam that time was History.One of our classmates, a boy to be exact, got hold of the very same exam that we were going to take after 2 hours. Imagine, lumabas pa sila para ipaphotocopy ung exam paper at kinabisado nila ung sagot..Mga mukha silang gago at nagsunog pa sila ng paper after nila makabisado. Luckily, I wasn't there. I really don't need it. Masyado na kasing risky un and I think its better to fail than to cheat na ganoon kalubha. As far as i know, di naman tayo ganoon kalubha magcheat nung highschool, not in the exams at least. I was just shocked to see that I was even higher than them in the exams. Not all the answer in the leakage was correct. Natawa tuloy ako.

The next day ethics naman. Ganoon din nakakuha din sila ng exact copy of finals. Tapos ung isang section laht sila perfect tapos ung isang natitira ata ang score ay one mistake. Ang tanga naman at laht sila perfect ung exam di ba?? Well, the teachers doesn't really believe us. Kaya ang result we have to take a retest. in boths subjects. Actually, ang di nila alam, lahat ng subject may leakage din. Minimal nga lang ung iba..

Napaisip tuloy ako, ganoon din ba sa skul niyo?? Ganoon katindi?? I don't think so..

* The First Boy I Ever Loved *

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 13:29:03 GMT

Last night, I was very busy crying over something I never thought I would cry for. Imagine I was crying for a boy!!

How did it happened? Well, it was this guy I have been telling in this LJ that I am not sure what I am feeling for. Last night, he was telling me that he was going to bring her so- called partner at home. He also asked me to wish for him luck. I asked himw why should I? He said he was going to tell Ahra[the girl] that he liked her. It was too sudden I didn't know how it happned. My eyes just stinged. Luckily, I was going to report next so I had time to restrain my tears. When I fifnished, I couldn't help but cry. He asked me why I was crying! Ang alam niya kasi may mahal ako sa UST na guy na itinutulay ko sa isa sa mga former frends ko from stc. He didn't know that I used the real experience in another school. Duh!?! Ang tanga niya talaga!!! Imagine katabi ko pa siya nung umiiyak ako. Akala niya ung iba ung iniiyakan ko. Di niya alam na siya ung iniiyakan ko. Sabi pa niya tanga lang ng lalaking un at di ako napansin!! Ang galing sinabihan ang sariling tanga. Lalo pa ko naiiyak nung inakbayan niya ako tapos sinabi niya na andyan lang siya at mahal niya ako!! Pinunasan pa niya ung luha ko ng kamay niya.. nakakaiyak talga ako..

Ung ex niya kasabay ko pa umuwi tapos sinasabi niya sa akin na mahal pa din niya si Jaesonne pero di na siya mahal ni Jaesonne. Lalo ako naiyak. Bukod sa may iba ng gusto ung lalaking gusto ko may manlalandi pa sa kanya. Feeling ko, alam na nung ex niya na may iisa ung mahal namin kasi ayoko sabihin sa kanya kung sino at sinabi ko lang na maraming masasaktan. Sabi niya ibig sabihin daw ay kilala niya at malaki ung possibility na isa siya doon sa masasaktan kaya ayokong sabihin. Ano ba ito ang daming tao ang nadadamay!!!

Last night, masaya ako humarap sa mom ko., Syempre sa umpisa lang. Nung mag-isa na ko, iyak na naman ako ng iyak. Nagsimula ako umiyak ng 5:30 sa school hanggang 8:30 ng gabi!!! tapos pagdating ko umiiyak na naman ako!!! Doon ko lang naitanong sa sarili ko, bat nga ba ako umiiyak? All this time, akala ko simple lang siya ma ganoon. Di ko alam na mas malala na pala ung nagnyayari sa akin. Namimiss ko talga ang iv6 sa ganitong bagay. Nahihirapan ako!! Sa lahat ng bagay na ginagawa ko sa ngaun lagi ako nakasandal sa kanya. Salahat ng bagay lagi niya ko pinagtatanggol sa nang-aaway sa akin at lagi ko pa iniiyakan!! Ano ba ito!! Siya ang kauna-unahan na lalaking minahal ko pero ganito lang ang mangyayari..

Di talaga ako makapaniwala na na umiiyak na ko para sa lalaki ngaun tulad niyo..:(

~~ Culture Shock ~~

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 22:56:44 GMT

It's been a while since I have updated my blog. And marami ng nagyari sa akin for the past few weeks. Some of them it would be difficult to believe..

pero before i start pakibasa ung message JOY!!
JOY: sabi mo ba't di ka kasama dun sa mga kaclose frends ko na enumerated the previous entry kasi binasa ko din ung dati mong entry di din ako nakalagay kaya nagselos ako!! wahahahah!!

Here's the news!!
Sa Academics, I'm still doing good. I have been highest to 5 exams out of 7. Ung dalawang exam na hindi ako highest ay math and science. Well, who cares I have to admit I was never good in those subjects. At least I'm doing good and for it I received an award from my mom-- a new mobile & a new computer.

Last September 22, our Collge day was held. I didn't win my Speech Contest. Guess what? I didn't win it because I didn't finish. The way I ended my speech was not appropriate I think..[At least I was the only contestant the my Dean said: "You were great." That's one of the highest compliment I have ever received.]

Nung araw na un, lumaban din ung taong di ko sigurado ung feelings ko as our representative of our college. Of course, the charmest and most brilliant won and I'm glad to say that it was him. Sobrang tuwa ko. Take ko ung advantage to hug him. And he's fast becoming special to me..I don't know. I'm trying to put a stop to this euphoria but it is very difficult.

E2 ang big news!! Nacuculture shock ako sa plm!! Amakin niyo ba naman may nang-away sa akin sa skul. May term paper kami sa ethics and i think you know the procedures in doing such paper. Kaya lang instead na magsurvey kami naginterview na lang kami kasi ung topic namin ay street children. This BITCH, Stephanie happened to be my groupmate. Imagine out of 5 chapters ng term paper 3 na ung nagawa ko pwera pa doon ung bibliography. Sukdulan na naman ung nagawa ko. Si stephanie nagpasa ba naman ng 1 PARAGRAPH NA RESEARCH FINDINGS. Ewan ko kung kagagahan lang o ano. Xyempre nagalit ako!?! Sino bang hindi? Siguor maski si K. Lo. magagalit noon. Tapos sigawan ba naman ako at sabihin kaya nga send sa iyo para ikaw gumawa!!! ANG KAPAL NG MUKHA!!!!

Kinabukasan may P.E. kami tapos may finals. Tinuturuan ko ung groupmates ko nung step namin. Kagroup ko pa din xa kaya di xa makalapit sa akin. Nung lahat kami nakaayos na sabihin ba naman sa akin: "OI, ABBY! ANO BANG PROBLEMA MO?" Sigawan ba naman ako sa harap ng gym. Di lang ako kumibo at ngumiti tapos binato ako ng papel ng so-called "ginawa niya" The hell!!! Sa bwisit ko sinabihan ko siya ng "Talk to the hands." Nagalit lalo.. Sasaktan na dapat ako. Tapos ung mahal ko hinarang niya at pinagtanggol ako [ moment ko un!!] Sinabihan pa ko kung sino daw ako sa akala ko? E2 pa ung ibang exact term niya: "KILALA MO BA UNG BINABANGGA MO? HINDI KITA AATRASAN." Sino bang nagsabi sa knya na aatrasan ko siya?!?

So sa ethics, natanggal siya sa group namin. Wala siya Term Paper. May oral defense pa man din un. Di ibig sabihin wala din xa grade sa oral!! Tawa ko lang. Dahil ako leader sa P.E. [di pa kami nagfinals] di ko din xa isasama at sa Behavioral Science namin may kelangan na Documentation [kagroup ko xa ulit] di ko din xa isasama. Naiyak na nga siya nung nag-away kami [ako hindi umiyak ha!] ewan ko lang kung di pa xa lalo umiyak dito dahil gagawin ko lahat para matanggal ung lecheng un sa PLM.

Honestly, nabigla ako doon sa nangyari. It was very exhilirating to be in such new environment. I felt like I don't belong there. Ang dami nilang ginagawa na di ko masakyan. I really do wish sa private school na lang talga ako napunta.:(

PeRfEct or DaNgER?!?

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 13:13:27 GMT

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Hay ang tagal ko na di nagupdate sa lj ko.. finally ngaun ko lang naharap..well ang daming bago sa akin this days!!
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Academics

Nagmidterm kmi. Tapos sa 9 subjects ko naghighest ako sa 4 na subject. Plus i was highest too in the 3 long exams..<never nman xyempre sa math, never ako nging mgaling dun!!> syempre sayang ung 5 subjects kasi imagine ang nakakuha ay galing ng tagapublic.. nahihiya tuloy ako sa sarili ko.. but because of that my bago na kaong mobile <bigay ko sa inyo # later.> May College day kami and m competing in Oratorical and Quizbee.. ano ba iyan meron din ako quizbee sa lunes pero sa engineering naman un.. grabe sa hectic sched.. namimiss ko na nga ang iv6 when it comes to things like this..<it will never like before> dami kasi user sa plm..sa pe bka next sem magswimming ako.. at least makakapaglakwatsa ako nun kasi malapit sa sm..marunong nako magcut ha!! tsaka magnursing ako..:(

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Family

okie naman.. well not of course the fact nainiwan ako ng tatay ko di ba..pero that made me strong di ba?? at least now dahil sa knya may ganda ako aim-- to be a MAGNA CUM LAUDE. at tska alam ko naman na kapag may problem ako khit sinong iv6 pwede ko kausapin para hingahan.. hirap kasi sa plm dahil di ko alam ang true frends unlike those in iv6 so mahirap dalhin sa skul ung problem..thanks to my former kada..<angel,gia,lia,pau,nai,nigui,val and of course ung ibang kaclose ko pa!!> namiss ko na nga si barron!! <oi!! tapos na walang malisya!!>

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LOVELIFE

ngaun dito ang malaking problem ko..may nanliligaw sa akin.. i really dont like him and im going to tell him kasi ayoko xa paasahin..

the greatest problem im falling for someone <classmate ko!!> he's really good..the problem ako'y tulay lang sa mahal niya <pero break na sila ngaun> pero xyempre sa akin niya sinasabi..tapos ewan ko medyo nasasaktan ako and somehow hoping na ako na lang ang pinili niya.. labo talaga.. i am spending my time and oney for him sa text. may insomia xa kaya di xa natutulog sa gabi at dun kami magkatxt eh bawal sa health ko ngaun un recently dahil sa bloodcount ko di ba?? ako na madalas walang load nagloload para makausap xa.. hay, kala ko tlaga manhid ako.. turns out na hindi pala..

worse pano kung malaman ng nanliligaw sa akin na ung gusto ko ngaun ay kabarkada niya?? how can i stop it?? it has to stop!!!! help me guys!!!