Hahahaha.. Fuuny, I have been looking forward to CIP for some reason but now I detest it. First, experience, we were blessed na walo kami sa bahay. The house is farely good, comfortable to stay but the problem is no food was provided. Luckily, all of us may dalang baon ng canned goods that is good for one week. This was instructed before hand to shoe that we are not assuming na sila talaga magpapakain. the problem is the food will not last for a month for the 8 of us.

In short, pinaghiwahiwalay kami. Nevertheless, malas pa din ako. ung napuntahan namin kasi grabe mabait sila! Si nanay, nagiihaw siya tapos si tatay who knows kung ano ginagawa niya. Very accomodating. Kaya lang kasama ko si charm (look alike niya si heart at maputi). Nung dumating kami doon nagiinuman sila tapos nagbulungan sila ng chabakano nung nakita kami. So that time, all of them including our groupmates and other CI were worried for us. Grabe kasi ung titig nila sa amin. Then the same night we moved in, naligo kami that night, pagpasok namin, they were watching PORN!!!! Grabe! Freaky di ba?!? Then the following night, lasing na naman si tatay! Sabi ni Kuya ganun daw talaga si tatay niya.
Laging lasing pag gabi. Tapos kinakatok niya kami lagi sa kwarto na wala naman siya sasabihin na matino. Imagine him asking for addresss. Katakot di ba?

Food: isda lagi! malamang may kaliskis na ako pag uwi! Tubig poso! lasang kalawang but we have no choice but to drink it. Mahirap dito.Pero kaya ko siya. Enjoy naman pero things would have been better kung maayos ung bahay ko at safety namin. nakakatawa i heard my prof saying na kung sino pa un may itsura talaga sa group ko siya pa napunta doon. Buti na lang kasama ko si charm!!! Hahahahah... so They are thinking of pulling us out there at ilipat sa ibang bahay. Nasa APLAYA kami. Basically the poor in the barangay. Malapit kami sa ilog na kadiri sa dumi.

Banyo? Grabe pahirapan jumebs! Sa dumi pa naman ng CR di mo iisipin umupo or tumapak ng nakapaa talaga. I am counting the days before the week ends, and then the stay to end! $ weeks to go!

TV without cable, DVD scarcity, Computer mimimized at with a room na pwede ka buhatin ng lamok! mahusay! I have to live with it. who knows i might enjoy it but i still miss the comfort my home can give me.

i was hoping that last firday, after all the happening (the date and going out with Nomads)that my day would end happily. However, things didn't turned out the way I'd always planned it.

When i got home, everything was ok. Until my mom asked about the orientation about my Pinning Ceremony (Clinical Area Graduation). Di kasi payag ang mama ko sa mga gastos doon sa Pinning na un that is almost P5000.00. I see her point just like any other parents. They were addressed, I think fairly. There was an orientation before tungkol doon pero my mom didn't attend because as she says it there are other more important things or errands she had to do. Pero ewan ko kahit anong gawin kung paliwanag di pa rin niya mainitindihan or more like ayaw niya intindihin! Mahirap ipaliwanag pero i tried my best. in the end she said, wag na lang daw ako magpinning at bumili na lang ako ng pin. Ako naman ang nasaktan! So I said, Fine! Wag na magPinning, Wag naman Maggraduation (months before she said she might not go to my Graduation kasi pupunta siya ng Australia). Then when I got upstairs, kami naman ng brother ko ang nag-away kasi pingsasabihan niya ako about the way kung pano ako sumagot sa mom ko. I know it was totally rude but I was terribly pissed. So in the end, my mom and I had a row. Syempre sa ibang sinabi niya nasaktan ako and vice versa. I think yung pinakamasakit na nasabi ko sa mom ko was that Nakakasama siya ng loob kasi the way she is doing things ako ung pinaghihinayangan niyang gastusan when in fact kaya lang ako magastos ay dahil graduating ako. Pero si Jed (my brother) kahit bumabagsak at nagbabayad ka ng mas mahal (he's in private college) di ka nagrereklamo. But that's how i really felt.

But what hurts me the most, is that sinabihan niya ako na kaya daw ako nagkakaganito kasi meron ako pera sa kanya at baka daw ang tingin ko ay dahil ginagalaw ang pera para sa personal niyang kailangan. (the money was from a scholarship- selected students ang napipili by cong. bonoan fortunately kasama ako) This money amounte to P9000.00. I gave this all to her when i received when i heard she needed it cover the debts she acquired for our tuition fees. Kasi ung kapatid ko 23,000 agad ang unang babayaran. Mine was around P8000.00. My gesture was that it could be of any help sa kanya. Di ko naisip na ganun pala ung iisipin niya kung bakit ko binigay sa kanya un. If the arguement was purely out of the Pinning di ako magdadamdam ng ganito.

Lalo pa sumama ung loob ko nung saturday. I was scheduled to go to my OBGYNE. Supposedly, kasama siya. but because we had a row, di niya ako sinamahan. Sinabi pa niya sa akin na kunin ko ung pera ko at isaksak ko sa baga ko. Gawin ko kung ano gusto ko dun sa pera ko. Naiiyak tlaga ako not just by her words but also sa pinakita niya. She knows very well na natatakot ako bumalik sa doktor kasi ung Ultrasound ko masakit kasi Transrectal ung Ultrasound ko. I know that she's not used to it pero with her just seating above my head and staying while the procedure was done was soothing enough for me. Pero hindi, pinabayaan niya ako. Ayon nung nagpapaalam na ako sa lola ko naalis na ako papuntang doktor naiyak na lang ako. Buti na lang andun siya kasi at least siya ung sumama sa akin. I really felt neglected dahil doon.

Aalis na ako by 17. I am hoping na sana bago man lang ako umalis mag-usap man lang kami.

Clang, as promised, nagpunta na ako sa doktor. ANd I still have POLYCYSTIC OVARIES. It needs two years of treatment. Check up every 6 months. Unless really necessary. But I'm okie

Katherine, oo nga ngayon lang ako nagupdate ulit. Wala bang bagong article sa newspaper?

Lia, langya ka! Megasmile ung comment mo sa Multiply!!!!!!!!!! Nakita mo na siya?!?! Anong rate?!?!

The heck i have two weeks at my hand with nothing to do and i am really disappointed with the lack of an effort of someone. Hay, i cant actually demand the person to talk to me or even remember it. I wish there was something to occupy mind other than keeping myself busy with books or TV. Hope, in the next few days i have more fulfilling days. I feel so lonely and alone...

Wow! It's been long since i updated my journal. Finally, kasi nakita ko na ung pinaglagyan ko ng id at password ko. For some reason I just can't remember where it was or even what my ID was. I think i need to check my memory. Baka candidate na for Alzheimers! Two years na din pala pero to be exact 100 weeks lang naman ako di nagupdate!

So what's been going on with me for these past 2 years? To be exact, I am trying to maintain my life as a Nursing Student! The hell with it, lost me tons of energy, made me tired, got no time to sleep and top of it all i didnt even finish my work to be done. There is simply just too much to accomplish making it nearly suicide to even have time to update my blog. I have to read about a minimum of 5 chapters each book for each subject. Fortunately/ Unfortunately, our school is not so abundant in books and technical things like PC, so we are encouraged to read all books we could put out hands on. Pathetic but turns out to be challenging after all. Since wala kaming common book like in STC we have to read it all for me to keep up with the Monsters in class. So in test, kung ung answer mo di ang answer ng Prof mo pagalingan kayo ng site ng libro at author for your answer to be considered! Take note we have a minimum of 4 subjects a day before kaya in a day you have to read about 20 chapters.

Nevertheless, I am nearly graduating na. Almost done na for bookbinding ang thesis namin which surprisingly hinihigi ng Manila Health Department at DOH! Hard work does pay oof after all. This coming November 17, I'll be gone for about 5 weeks para magstay sa Ternate, Cavite. The last burden the school had to give us. Similar siya sa PALIHAN natin before pero mas intense siya kasi dun kayo nakatira sa Community. Then after Xmas break we have to go back there for another 3 weeks to complete it then comes the Second batch. Nearly done, guys! We almost are! I'm planning to take Midwifery after nursing. That 9 units away from me so i can have a double degree. Then I want to take up Masteral and or be a Med Student. It all depends on my likes I guess. But more than anything I do want to work in PGH.

I have been reading my testimonials in Friendster. Lia then mentioned how interested I was in Communication or Broadcasting. I still am, its just now I realize pursuing that kind of career would never lead me to be successful not only financially. I know there will always be someone out there who desered more attention! Katherine! I am so proud of you! But then, I've come to love Nursing as well and might go even further to have this name: ANA EVITA E. BAYANGOS, RN, RM, MAN, PhD, MD. Hahahahahah.. Adik noh? Family is doing okie. I guess the only thing missing is a man! Anyone out there theN? Hahahahaha

Wow! It's been so long since I really got the time to update you with my life. Ang hirap kasi ibalancce lahat and all the same to have time to do the leisures we used to have before. Anong bang bago?

I rarely have time to open my pc except when I am forced to do my written reports or seat plans that I am assigned to do. Grabe! Namimiss ko si angela sa ganitong pagkakataon. I really am beginning to enjoy nursing. Or is it because ang dinidiscuss na namin ay something to do with sexuality which I always find interesting?!? I know you agree! Hahaha.. But it's good. Nakakatuwa din magdiscuss about family and taking care of them, or to trace certain sickness pathways.. Naloloka lang ako sa microparasitology. Ang hirap lang niya. I always have exams as usual. And unfortunately, di kami tulad ng ust na maaga nagcapping. I won't be capped until summer kung mapapasahan ko pa ung battery test namin. I guess I still have to survive another sem. As I am in a government school already, di nila kaya isustain ung expenses so continous ung cutting off nila ng expenses which includes students. SO matira matibay talaga kami. I am no longer in DEAN's LIST. I really regretted it since I didn't really exert much effort to like it at first. Believe it or not, without iv6 I am losing touch with my study habits. More like nagiging si SOLO ako. I sleep more that's what I mean. Nasayang lang ang aking average nung first year na I was planning to reserve for third year. Babawin ko xa ngayon sem na ito. hopefully magawa ko. Mabigat din nman kasi ung load considering I only have 26 units 21 of which are major subjects for nursing. That's around 5-6 subjects na crucial sa average ko.

Tomorrow, i'll be off. My sister is going abroad. She's going to work in Singapore as a IT consultant and Computer engineer. Finally, my sister would have the chance to really practice her field that she neglected for 2 years na ata. Hopefully, with her, makakaangat-angat na kami. I certainly hope so. Nevertheless, with her gone, it will be a big burden on my shoulder as well. I have to take over her responsibility as an elder sister, to look after my mother na nagiging sobrang kulit habang tumatanda na nakakatorete talaga, to look after my lola na kasing kulit din ng nanay ko, and to keep my patience with my useless arrogant brother. Though, my sister and I have our differences mas close ako sa kanya kesa sa naiwan ditong kapatid ko. Mamimiss ko talaga xa!

Since I have to look after my lola, natutulog ako sa kanya sa bahay para lang masilip xa. ung kapatid kasi niya namatay di ba while sleeping. Ang nakakaasar doon kami lang ni ate ang nagpapalitan na matulog doon. Now, that she's going, I am left all alone to do the job. Napakawalang silbi ng brother ko na hindi naman natutulog doon. At ang nanay kong 'konsintidora' na ayaw iwalay ang anak niya sa kanya. Nadengue si Jed months ago and that's the reason that my mother keeps on giving me. Yeah right! To think I am studying harder than him,have more work to do, it's such a burden na pag dating ko ganoon ang sasabihin na doon ako matutulog tapos ang dami ko pa gagawin. Ang pasok ko the next day is 7 A.M.

I am going to start my duty. Lucikily sa Ospital ng Maynila - sa may ward, delivery room, nursery. Plus Health Center pa. That's about 3 months and a half. Lovelife and inspiration remains 0...